Still in the hospital and I don’t think I will be getting out anytime soon. I know that I am going to die and I have accepted this fact, but my family can’t. I hear from the nurse's gossip that my mother was given a restraining to keep away from Anna for awhile. I know that I am hurting my entire family by doing this to them, but this is for the best. When I am gone Jesse will get the attention he has been dying for. Anna will finally be released for the anchor that I have out on her, she will be able to play hockey and live her life. I hope they will understand. I have caused so much damage to my family, Anna and Dad had to move out because of the restraining order. I know this is what I want, though.